| are you ready, boots?! |
[Wednesday
July 6th, 2005 at 7:52pm] |
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maybe it's intuition..
but some things you just don't question.
like in your eyes,
i see my future in an instant.
& there it goes.
i think i've found my best friend.
i know that it might sound a little crazy,
but i believe..
i knew i loved you before i met you.
i think i dreamed you into life.
i knew i loved you before i met you.
i have been waiting all my life.
there's just no rhyme or reason.
only this sense of completion.
& in your eyes,
i see the missing pieces i'm searching for.
i think i've found my way home.
a thousand angels dance around you.
i am complete now that i've found you.
i knew i loved you before i met you.
i think i dreamed you into life.
i knew i loved you before i met you.
i have been waiting all my life.
we fight.
we argue.
we scream.
we hit each other.
we call each other names.
we say things we don't mean.
we attempt to leave each other.
but we know that we'll always be there for each other in the end.
& we'll always come back no matter how mad we get.
cuz we'll never stop loving each other..
& we could never be without each other..
no matter what.
we'll remain strong through it all..
together.
i love you, marvin devillis roberts junior.
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| hello!~!@##$%~!! |
[Tuesday
June 28th, 2005 at 5:56pm] |
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trapped in the closet.. r.kelly |
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i just got back from south carolina & georgia.
we were there for almost two weeks.
i had a lot of fun.
except when my love & i were fighting..
& dealing with all these trust issues.
i know it's all my fault & i've made my mistakes..
but i'm really not gonna hurt him like i did before.
we've been mostly good lately, though.
i love love love not fighting with him.
we're perfect when we're not arguing.
hmm.. summer has been good so far.
i'm dreading going back to school.
hey, we're seniors though!!
class of '06.. hell yeah!!~!#@#%$!~ :]
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| save me.. someone. |
[Tuesday
June 7th, 2005 at 1:16am] |
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i feel sick to my stomach.
i just wanna go somewhere else.
where i don't know anyone.
& no one knows me.
there are some things i wish i could reset.
& start all over again.
i don't know what to do anymore..
i'm hurt.
confused.
sick.
sad.. so sad that i can't even cry anymore.
it's like i've cried too much.
& the tears just won't come again.
even though all i wanna do is cry.
i need to get away.
just escape..
from everything.
"what is life?
what's the use?
if you kill inside.."
&& I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE.
!~@#!~%!!
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| come get your bitch.. she on me, dawwwwg. |
[Tuesday
May 31st, 2005 at 2:43pm] |
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sooo.....
school has been out for a week & a half now.
the summer has been great so far..
i've been so busy.
but i did fuck up.. big time.
but i know we'll get through it.
cuz we can get through anything.
& i love him. ;]
i visited uf.
it is so nice & i want to go there so bad.
but i probably won't get accepted.
cuz i fucked around this year.
& my gpa has gone way down.
damnit!!~!~#@#$#$%!
crystal & i met jesse mccartney.
& walked around city walk with him.
& were in the first row at his concert.
woo.. that was awesome.
alright, well i gotta go get my nails did.
toodles!
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[Sunday
May 8th, 2005 at 12:25am] |
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hey.. i love you.
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[Sunday
May 1st, 2005 at 4:10pm] |
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don't happen twice.. kenny chesney |
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today we had a car wash.
we had a grand ol' time.. lol.
then april treated us to applebees! ;)
hmm.. i'm bored.
here's some random pics.
( I'M SO ICY )
okay.. that's all for now.
♥ ♥ ♥
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| lonestar |
[Sunday
April 24th, 2005 at 9:44pm] |
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let's be us again.. lonestar |
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last night marvin & i went to cypress gardens.
& the lonestar concert.
i had so much fun.
besides the fact that the concert got postponed for like an hour or 2.
cuz of the rain.
& we got soaking wet.
& we were freezing all night long.
but i still had a good time.
i love you!
♥
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| saturday ♥ |
[Sunday
April 17th, 2005 at 5:41pm] |
the jesse mccartney concert was awesome.
we were at the very front of the non-reserved seating section..
cuz we're dummies & didn't get reserved seats.
but then some guy was leaving & he gave us his tickets.
so we got to go up to the very front of the stage.
holy shit.. he is so fuckin fine.
cypress gardens was cool too.
crystal, pam, rachel & i had so much fun riding the rides.
& being our stupid selves.
the park closed at 10 & we were still in there at 10:30.
& these boys that worked there were trying to talk to us.
& they were like "omg jesse is at the front of the park signing autographs."
& i was like "y'all are lying."
& they were like "no, we promise. we swear to god."
i didn't believe them..
but again, being the dumbasses that we are..
we ran all the way to the front of the park from the very back..
to find.. NO jesse mccartney.
they just wanted us outta there.
so they could leave faster.
hmmph. oh well.. assholes.
i bought the pass so i think me & marvin are gonna go next weekend to see lonestar.
today we saw amityville horror.
it was good.. i liked it.
well i'm out. ♥
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| friends = love |
[Saturday
April 16th, 2005 at 2:03pm] |
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i'm bored; waiting to go to cypress gardens,
to see jesse mccartney. yay! :)
so i just wanted to say thanks to a three really special friends of mine,
who have really helped me through a lot of tough times lately..
kyle-hey babe. i honestly don't know what i would do without you. you've been there for me through everything for the past, what? 3 years?? even though i might not listen to you all the time, i know you're just trying to do what's best for me & i really do appreciate all the advice you've given me. i trust you with my life & i'm glad we're such good friends cuz you mean sooo much to me. we've had so many fun times together & i wouldn't trade them for the world. i love you!!
steph-thanks for always having my back, no matter what the situation has been. you're an awesome person.. don't ever change for anyone, okay? whenever i'm having a bad day, i know i can just call you & you'll immediately cheer me up (just mention that js! lmao). i love you to death stephanie & i'll always be here if you need anything!
amanda-aphrodite!@#~!$$!! lmao. i love you girlie. we've been through a lot of the same situations & you always know the right things to say when i'm upset. i know i can always count on you for anything & everything. thanks so much for helping me out & being there for me, even when i've done some dumbass things! heh. i dunno where i would be right now if we weren't best friends. thanks! xoxoxo.
& all my other friends (especially ant!).. i love y'all too!
thanks for everything.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
"i can see that you've been crying
you can't hide it with a lie
what's the use in you denying..
that what you have is wrong?
i heard him promise you forever
but forever's come & gone
baby, he would say whatever
it takes to keep you blind
tell the truth between the lines
i will love you more than that
i won't say the words
then take them back
don't give loneliness a chance
baby, listen to me when i say
i will love you more than that
baby, you deserve much better
what's the use in holding on?
don't you see it's now or never?
cuz i just can't be friends
knowing that in the end, that..
i will love you more than that
i won't say the words
then take them back
don't give loneliness a chance
baby, listen to me when i say
i will love you more than that
there's not a day that passes by
i don't wonder why we haven't tried
it's not too late to change your mind
so take my hand, don't say goodbye"
(thanks kyle)
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[Sunday
April 10th, 2005 at 5:27pm] |
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imcomplete.. bsb |
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omg..
prom was amazing
i had so much fun.. ah loved it
definitely can't wait to do it again next year
oh, & i especially liked the car ride home
♥ ♥ ♥
i'm so relieved..
marvin & his parents just left a while ago
i'm glad everything (well almost everything, lol)
is out in the open now
it feels a lot better
to not have it locked up inside anymore
i think everything is gonna work out just fine ;)
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| hate the thought of him being with someone else <x3 |
[Friday
April 8th, 2005 at 4:36pm] |
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prom is tomorrow
oh goodness.. i am so excited
it's so damn expensive though
grr i hate that i'm spending all my money
on my junior prom
not even my senior prom
but oh well cuz
WE'RE GONNA HAVE SO MUCH FUN!@!#@!!~!$
ahhh
anyways
i'm confused with a lot of things right now
most of the parts in this song
describe exactly how i'm feeling..
i don't understand why
see it's burning me to hold onto this
i know this is something i gotta do
but that don't mean i want
what i'm trying to say is that
I LOVE YOU
i just feel like this is coming to an end
& it's better for me to let it go now
than hold on & hurt you
gotta let it burn
it's gonna burn for me to say this
but it's coming from my heart
it's been a long time coming
but we done been fell apart
i really wanna work this out
but i don't you're gonna change
i do but you don't
think it's best we go our separate ways
tell me why i should stay in this relationship
when i'm hurting baby
i ain't happy baby
plus there's so many other things i gotta deal with
i think that you should let it burn
when your feeling ain't the same
& your body don't want to
but you know, gotta let it go
cuz the party ain't jumping like it used to
even though this might bruise you
let it burn, let it burn, gotta let it burn
deep down you know it's best for yourself
but you hate the thought of him being with someone else
but you know that it's over
you know that it's through
let it burn, let it burn, gotta let it burn
sending pages i ain't supposed to
got somebody here but i want you
cuz the feeling ain't the same
find myself calling him your name
ladies, tell me do you understand?
now all my fellas, do you feel my pain?
it's the way i feel
i know i made a mistake
now it's too late
i know he ain't coming back
what i gotta do now to get my shorty back?
ohhh, man i don't know what i'm gonna do
without my boo
you've been gone for too long
it's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
i'mma be burning 'til you return
when your feeling ain't the same
& your body don't want to
but you know, gotta let it go
cuz the party ain't jumping like it used to
even though this might bruise you
let it burn, let it burn, gotta let it burn
deep down you know it's best for yourself
but you hate the thought of him being with someone else
but you know that it's over
you know that it's through
let it burn, let it burn, gotta let it burn
i'm twisted cuz one side of me
is telling me that i need to move on
on the other side, i wanna break down & cry
i'm twisted cuz one side of me
is telling me that i need to move on
on the side, i wanna break down & cry
ohhh, can ya feel it burning?
so many days, so many hours
i'm still burning til you return
when your feeling ain't the same
& your body don't want to
but you know, gotta let it go
cuz the party ain't jumping like it used to
even though this might bruise you
let it burn, let it burn, gotta let it burn
deep down you know it's best for yourself
but you hate the thought of him being with someone else
but you know that it's over
you know that it's through
let it burn, let it burn, gotta let it burn
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[Sunday
April 3rd, 2005 at 1:05pm] |
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end of the road.. boys II men |
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broken this fragile thing now
& i can't pick up the pieces ..
my only 1, i feel so brokenup
& I GIVE UP
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| all or nothing |
[Thursday
March 31st, 2005 at 12:00pm] |
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i know when he's been on your mind
that distant look is in your eyes
i thought with time you'd realize
it's over, over
it's not the way i choose to live
& something somewhere's got to give
as sharing this relationship gets older, older
you know i'd fight for you
but how i can find someone who isn't even there?
i've had the rest of you
now i want the best of you
i dont care if that's not fair
cuz i want it all
or nothing at all
there's no where left to fall
when you reach the bottom, it's now or never
is it all
or are we just friends?
is this how it ends?
with a simple telephone call
you leave me here, with nothing at all
there are times it seems to me
i'm sharing you in memories
i feel it in my heart
but i don't show it, show it
& then there's times you look at me
as though i'm all that you can see
those times i don't believe it's right
i know it, know it
don't me make me promises
baby you never did know how to keep them well
i've had the rest of you
now i want the best of you
it's time for show & tell
cuz i want it all
or nothing at all
there's no where left to fall
when you reach the bottom, it's now or never
is it all
or are we just friends?
is this how it ends?
with a simple telephone call
you leave me here, with nothing at all
cuz you & i
could lose it all
if you've got no more room
no room inside for me in your life
cuz i want it all
or nothing at all
there's no where left to fall
it's now or never
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| happy easter! |
[Sunday
March 27th, 2005 at 7:57pm] |
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the easter bunny treated me well.
he got me some burberry perfume.
mmmmzmzmz.
& a guess watch that i've been wanting for a while.
& of course, some candy.. ya know.
oh.. and my cousins & i took my little sister on an easter egg hunt.. around the house.
it was very interesting.
i got a lot of eggs..
they were filled with money.
yeahhh man..
i got $15 from a fricken easter egg hunt.
well, i hope everyone had a good day..
happy easter
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| spring break |
[Friday
March 25th, 2005 at 5:48pm] |
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the way you make me feel.. michael jackson |
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spring break.. was.. awesome..
i really needed that time off of school.
i'm thinking about deleting all my past entries and starting over.
hmm.
i need to clean out my car.
and my closet.
i want a smoothie.
i think i'll go get one in a few..
when i go to bartow.
mmmzmzm.
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| loving you is like food to my soul |
[Sunday
March 13th, 2005 at 8:12pm] |
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a song for mama.. boys 2 men |
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why did this have to happen?
how do i say goodbye to what we have?
the good times that made us laugh
outweigh the bad
i thought we'd get to see forever
but forever's gone away
it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
i don't know where this road is goin to lead
all i know is where we've been
and what we've been through
if we get to see tomorrow
i hope it's worth all the wait
it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
and i'll take with me the memories
to be my sunshine after the rain
it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday...
i love you
<|3
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| when it's all said and done, i'm still in love with you.. |
[Wednesday
March 2nd, 2005 at 8:31pm] |
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this weekend was really fun. my cousins from canada that i only get to see once or twice a year came down on thursday and stayed til tuesday. we were in orlando or tampa everyday and we had a great time.. i love them :)
today crystal came over cuz i had to record a video for spanish class. it's so funny. lol. can't wait to show it to the class tomorrow.. hah. i also found a lot of my tapes from over the summer. *holy shit* i forgot about all the fun we had this summer. jessica and i were obsessed with video taping everything.. and that is definitely what we did. lol. i love watchin shit like that
anyways, this weekend is gonna be fun too. crystal is spending the weekend with me cuz her parents are goin outta town- party at her house. lol just playin. she should do that but who knows with her. on friday i think we are training the track meet and then goin to the midnight madness thing at the strawberry festival with marvin and one of his friends. i wanna hook crystal up with his friend.. lol. hmmm. then saturday we're goin to team day in winter haven for first responders (yay) and then maybe spending the night in tampa so we can go prom dress shopping and maybe to the beach or somethin on sunday.. depending on how cold it is i guess. i kinda wanna go to the kleen game on saturday though. i hope they go to states. i'm gonna go to that game for sure. and lil budd said that she might be able to get me free tickets to both of the state games cuz someone she knows works at the lakeland center
well i'm out
i'll try to write in here more
peace
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[Sunday
February 20th, 2005 at 6:51pm] |
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so.. i just want you to know
i love you
♥
"and it's a dream.. let me sleep
only wake me when you're in my arms again"
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[Tuesday
February 8th, 2005 at 7:03pm] |
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i just don't know what else to say baby.. there's really nothing else left to say. there's really nothing more i can say but i love you. since you came inside my life, you've given my the best of you everyday and night. i found my happiness in you and you make me wanna ride to the end of any valley. then you give my peace of mind. you bring me comfort to my soul, give me such a high. no, i will never let you go. you make me wanna fly to the top of every rainbow. so promise you'll never leave, never say this is the end. spend your life with me, you'll be my love and my best friend. raise a family, something we both can treasure. so would you come and fly with me? forever you and me, that's how it's supposed to be. i love you more everyday, you show me love in everyway. there's nothing left for me to say but i love you, more and more everyday. i won't stop lovin you and i won't stop kissin you. you're the reason why i smile. i won't stop holdin you, i won't stop lovin you. you're the reason why i smile..
valentine's day is coming up and since i probably won't write again by then..
♥ happy valentine's day everyone ♥
i can stay right here forever in your arms and there ain't no way i'm lettin you go now, there ain't no way and there ain't no how.. we'll never see that day
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